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That time of year again? Yikes.

Date	Title	Fandom	Words
3/26	Muet 9	LM	3429
4/8	Muet Feuilly/Jehan outtake	LM	556
7/12	As It Should Be	LM	2563
9/4	Muet 10	LM	5495
10/14	Bahorel/Jehan ghost fic	LM	629
10/14	E/F fantasy AU	LM	691
10/14	"You Need to Eat Something" (Cody & Obi-Wan)	SW	582
10/22	Muet 11	LM	5655
10/24	flutter for a day and think it is forever	Dark Matter	6007
10/28	Coffee Shops and Daffodils	Power Rangers	2669
12/18	Anon YT fic		1413
		Subtotal	29689
WiPs
6/21	Andros/Zhane Sick!fic	PRiS	778
6/24	No Man is an Island 5	LM	393
8/23	Tiniest Jedi Master (Qui-Gon & Obi-Wan)	SW	491
10/28	Untitled E/F Fall fic	LM	1341
	Untitled Jehan/Combeferre platonic meme fic	LM	889
		Subtotal	3892

		Total	33581

( Unhappy thoughts below the cut? )

*sigh* I'd say, "Here's hoping I'll do better next year," but I said that last year and look how well it didn't turn out. :P

Current Mood: blank
Crossposts: https://rchan.livejournal.com/265716.html

So, I finally decided it was time to start making calls and hunting up a new therapist. I have an appointment with someone on Monday and of course I’m now mildly freaking out about it. My last two experiences with such things have NOT turned out that well. *heavy sigh* But I'm getting really really really tired of living my life through the lens of anxiety. And I'm getting really really really tired of being so fucking tired all the time. I live most of my life feeling exhausted, like I can't budge to do the things I really need to do. And it's frustrating because I keep feeling like I should be able to just kick this thing in the ass and move on. Thing is... it doesn't work that way, does it?

( Nipping here now a very long post rambling about the state of my mental health and my hopes for the coming year. )