Year End Word Count Meme (2017)
Dec. 31st, 2017 11:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eirenicalThat time of year again? Yikes.
So, last year was pretty pathetic. This year was worse. O_o;;; Remember back in 2010 when I wrote 380,000 words worth of fic in one year? *wistful sigh* I miss my days in Hair. I was way more productive then. :P Anyway, this year we continue the trend of ever decreasing word counts AND I've officially written my first piece of coal for YT. No comment from the recip. Not even a kudos. So, that sucks. I also utterly failed at responding to AO3 comments this year. I have like... 6 or 7 I still have to answer, but I've been so damned unmotivated with everything. Everything just feels like too much work. Even taking out my computer and turning it on feels like too much work some days.
I don't know. I just feel like I'm stretched way too thin, lately. I haven't had time to finish my schoolwork. My assignment turn-around time to my students was ridiculous. I mean... we're talking WEEKS. That's too damned long. Not to mention that I'm spinning my wheels in a currently dead end job where I'm constantly being taken advantage of with no sign of a way out anytime soon, and I'm starting to really resent it.
Honestly, I just haven't had the energy to DO anything. I've been in a perpetual state of existential ennui. Like, the world is going to hell in a handbasket, so why the fuck should I care about anything? It takes too much effort and we live in a dystopia that's going to end tomorrow anyway. a.k.a. I've been living in depression land for too damned much of this year. And that explains the word count more than anything else could.
*sigh* I'd say, "Here's hoping I'll do better next year," but I said that last year and look how well it didn't turn out. :P
| Date | Title | Fandom | Words | ||
| 3/26 | Muet 9 | LM | 3429 | ||
| 4/8 | Muet Feuilly/Jehan outtake | LM | 556 | ||
| 7/12 | As It Should Be | LM | 2563 | ||
| 9/4 | Muet 10 | LM | 5495 | ||
| 10/14 | Bahorel/Jehan ghost fic | LM | 629 | ||
| 10/14 | E/F fantasy AU | LM | 691 | ||
| 10/14 | "You Need to Eat Something" (Cody & Obi-Wan) | SW | 582 | ||
10/22 | Muet 11 | LM | 5655 | ||
| 10/24 | Dark Matter | 6007 | |||
| 10/28 | Power Rangers | 2669 | |||
| 12/18 | Anon YT fic | 1413 | |||
| Subtotal | 29689 | ||||
| WiPs | |||||
| 6/21 | Andros/Zhane Sick!fic | PRiS | 778 | ||
| 6/24 | No Man is an Island 5 | LM | 393 | ||
| 8/23 | Tiniest Jedi Master (Qui-Gon & Obi-Wan) | SW | 491 | ||
| 10/28 | Untitled E/F Fall fic | LM | 1341 | ||
| Untitled Jehan/Combeferre platonic meme fic | LM | 889 | |||
| Subtotal | 3892 | ||||
| Total | 33581 |
So, last year was pretty pathetic. This year was worse. O_o;;; Remember back in 2010 when I wrote 380,000 words worth of fic in one year? *wistful sigh* I miss my days in Hair. I was way more productive then. :P Anyway, this year we continue the trend of ever decreasing word counts AND I've officially written my first piece of coal for YT. No comment from the recip. Not even a kudos. So, that sucks. I also utterly failed at responding to AO3 comments this year. I have like... 6 or 7 I still have to answer, but I've been so damned unmotivated with everything. Everything just feels like too much work. Even taking out my computer and turning it on feels like too much work some days.
I don't know. I just feel like I'm stretched way too thin, lately. I haven't had time to finish my schoolwork. My assignment turn-around time to my students was ridiculous. I mean... we're talking WEEKS. That's too damned long. Not to mention that I'm spinning my wheels in a currently dead end job where I'm constantly being taken advantage of with no sign of a way out anytime soon, and I'm starting to really resent it.
Honestly, I just haven't had the energy to DO anything. I've been in a perpetual state of existential ennui. Like, the world is going to hell in a handbasket, so why the fuck should I care about anything? It takes too much effort and we live in a dystopia that's going to end tomorrow anyway. a.k.a. I've been living in depression land for too damned much of this year. And that explains the word count more than anything else could.
*sigh* I'd say, "Here's hoping I'll do better next year," but I said that last year and look how well it didn't turn out. :P
