*murmurmurmurmur*
Apr. 17th, 2007 12:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eirenical*chibi hauls herself out of the crawlspace of the Internet where she's been hiding the last month* *weary waves*
*contemplative* You know... it's the strangest feeling... when the best job you've ever had is also the worst job you've ever had. I signed on to this one with the intent of working for somebody else. That was my plan. Work for someone else who was more experienced than me and interested in being a mentor to a poor newbie who didn't know what the f**k she was doing. And you know what? I found it. I found a great mentor, great teacher, great person to learn from. There's only one problem...
She's a rotten boss. I mean truly G-d awful. *sighs* Don't get me wrong, I love her to death and she is a wonderful veterinarian. I would trust her to treat my kitty, and that's saying a lot. She's also a great teacher. I think I've learned more from her than from most of my vet school professors combined. But her managing skills... *wince* And her communication skills... *wince*
I don't want to be a boss. I don't want to be in charge. I'm too damned young for that responsibility and I'm too new to my craft. I have enough responsibility just doing my own job. I don't want to do half of hers, too! *sigh*
Now, I might be able to handle that (frustrations galore, oh sure, but manageable)... if I didn't have to do my nurses' jobs on top of it! *silent fuming* And I wonder why I go home exhausted at the end of the day! I put in hours that are far longer than I'm being paid for, I do my own job, I do the job of the people under me and I shoulder half the responsibility for the people over me. I'm exhausted and I'm getting sick of it. If I actually got paid for all the extra work I took on, I'd be making six figures.
*grumps* I need a nap. Or a vacation.
The worst part of all of it, is that I don't even care any more.
*thuds*
*contemplative* You know... it's the strangest feeling... when the best job you've ever had is also the worst job you've ever had. I signed on to this one with the intent of working for somebody else. That was my plan. Work for someone else who was more experienced than me and interested in being a mentor to a poor newbie who didn't know what the f**k she was doing. And you know what? I found it. I found a great mentor, great teacher, great person to learn from. There's only one problem...
She's a rotten boss. I mean truly G-d awful. *sighs* Don't get me wrong, I love her to death and she is a wonderful veterinarian. I would trust her to treat my kitty, and that's saying a lot. She's also a great teacher. I think I've learned more from her than from most of my vet school professors combined. But her managing skills... *wince* And her communication skills... *wince*
I don't want to be a boss. I don't want to be in charge. I'm too damned young for that responsibility and I'm too new to my craft. I have enough responsibility just doing my own job. I don't want to do half of hers, too! *sigh*
Now, I might be able to handle that (frustrations galore, oh sure, but manageable)... if I didn't have to do my nurses' jobs on top of it! *silent fuming* And I wonder why I go home exhausted at the end of the day! I put in hours that are far longer than I'm being paid for, I do my own job, I do the job of the people under me and I shoulder half the responsibility for the people over me. I'm exhausted and I'm getting sick of it. If I actually got paid for all the extra work I took on, I'd be making six figures.
*grumps* I need a nap. Or a vacation.
The worst part of all of it, is that I don't even care any more.
*thuds*
