OMG, I think I'm really doing this.
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eirenicalYou've all heard me squealing and blushing for years at the very thought of writing sex. Well... I've become aware (thanks to all my Hair stories) that I'd like to get over that. The problem is two-fold:
1) I have no practical experience. I am not a gay man, nor am I ever likely to be one. Therefore, everything I know about gay sex I've gleaned from other first or (more likely) second-hand accounts. That makes me extremely uncomfortable. I don't like feeling under-knowledged about a subject for which I intend to write.
2) I promised Nuriko a loooooooong time ago that out of love for him, he and Tasuki would get my first lemon. Then I realized that it would have to happen towards the end of OB (if not as an epilogue O_o) and my rewrite on that SOB has seriously stymied my efforts.
...Which, as it turns out, has been a really convenient excuse.
Well, I had many fruitful plot discussions with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
zoicite while we were off seeing Prometheus Bound and Hair this weekend... and G-d help me, I think I want to do this. First off... PB tripped just about all my kink buttons. So that kicked the weekend off right. Then, Steel and Paris... OMG, Steel and Paris. I didn't think it was possible for them to be any more all over each other than they were in New Haven.
It. Is.
OMFG in Heaven, it is. *_* *_*
Lots of hand-holding, still plenty of cuddling, some jeans gripping during the cuddling. Lovelovelove. But then... oh dear. During Colored Spade, when before Paris had been leaning against Steel's leg and cuddling it, this time they did something different.
Oh boy, did they do something different. *_________________*
Steel knelt down behind Paris and hugged him around the middle (Paris was sort of standing up on his knees at the time). No big deal, says you? Wait for it, says me.
Steel then bent Paris over onto his hands and knees and climbed on top of him doggy-style.
I. Shit. You. Not.
Periodically, Paris would push himself back up into their original position and they would cuddle for a while, then Steel would bend him right back over and climb on top of him again. This went on all throughout Colored Spade (except for the part that Berger is involved in, of course). Dude... as much as I love Darius Nichols, I confess, I missed that whole damned song. I can't imagine why... *snickers*
Anyway, this (and many other things -- not the least of which was finding the Tavern called "Bukowski's") started my Hair inspiration right back up again and launched me into the quandary of writing sex. See... in the next sequel to the Algea, one of the culminating issues of Claude's recovery is going to be finally having a return to physical intimacy with Berger and Sheila. And if I'm too chickenshit to write straight-up male-male porn, I'm sure as hell too chickenshit to write a threesome. O_O;;; Then I de-tangled the possibility that it could just be male-male sex with Sheila watching... which brought this back into the realm of possible.
And right back to problems #1 and #2, mentioned above. O_O
This was when my subconscious got involved. Apparently, it's had enough of me wibble-wobbling all these years.
So... when I sat down at the computer to write a paper (due tomorrow)... what emerged instead is what looks like something that may turn into Fushigi Yuugi porn.
O_O;;;
I'm scaried.
Here's hoping I don't chicken out (or fall asleep) before I get to the good part now that I've finally thrown myself into attempting this. O_O;;;
Nuriko: O. M. G--.
Tasuki: Did... did I really just read that right?
Nuriko: *nodnod* *wobble eyes* *glomps the fic author*
R-chan: *blush* *bluuuuuuush* *BLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSH* *little voice* I'll try, OK? That's all I'm promising.
Nuriko: I don't care. I'll take it!
R-chan: *twitch* Fine. Then help a girl out! Stop talking at each other and start sexing each other up, already!
Nuriko: *twitch* I'm trying!
Tasuki: *sweatdrop* Um... yeah. This one's my bad. I'll work on it.
Nuriko/R-chan: *sweatrain*
Edit: And... 2 1/2 hours later, I still have no paper, I have almost 2000 words of FY fic... and still no sex. O_o;;; At least I've gotten them through the talking and they seem to be ready to get down to business. Now if only I wasn't too bloody exhausted to type. Neeeeeeed sleeeeeeep. *thud*
1) I have no practical experience. I am not a gay man, nor am I ever likely to be one. Therefore, everything I know about gay sex I've gleaned from other first or (more likely) second-hand accounts. That makes me extremely uncomfortable. I don't like feeling under-knowledged about a subject for which I intend to write.
2) I promised Nuriko a loooooooong time ago that out of love for him, he and Tasuki would get my first lemon. Then I realized that it would have to happen towards the end of OB (if not as an epilogue O_o) and my rewrite on that SOB has seriously stymied my efforts.
...Which, as it turns out, has been a really convenient excuse.
Well, I had many fruitful plot discussions with
zoicite while we were off seeing Prometheus Bound and Hair this weekend... and G-d help me, I think I want to do this. First off... PB tripped just about all my kink buttons. So that kicked the weekend off right. Then, Steel and Paris... OMG, Steel and Paris. I didn't think it was possible for them to be any more all over each other than they were in New Haven.It. Is.
OMFG in Heaven, it is. *_* *_*
Lots of hand-holding, still plenty of cuddling, some jeans gripping during the cuddling. Lovelovelove. But then... oh dear. During Colored Spade, when before Paris had been leaning against Steel's leg and cuddling it, this time they did something different.
Oh boy, did they do something different. *_________________*
Steel knelt down behind Paris and hugged him around the middle (Paris was sort of standing up on his knees at the time). No big deal, says you? Wait for it, says me.
Steel then bent Paris over onto his hands and knees and climbed on top of him doggy-style.
I. Shit. You. Not.
Periodically, Paris would push himself back up into their original position and they would cuddle for a while, then Steel would bend him right back over and climb on top of him again. This went on all throughout Colored Spade (except for the part that Berger is involved in, of course). Dude... as much as I love Darius Nichols, I confess, I missed that whole damned song. I can't imagine why... *snickers*
Anyway, this (and many other things -- not the least of which was finding the Tavern called "Bukowski's") started my Hair inspiration right back up again and launched me into the quandary of writing sex. See... in the next sequel to the Algea, one of the culminating issues of Claude's recovery is going to be finally having a return to physical intimacy with Berger and Sheila. And if I'm too chickenshit to write straight-up male-male porn, I'm sure as hell too chickenshit to write a threesome. O_O;;; Then I de-tangled the possibility that it could just be male-male sex with Sheila watching... which brought this back into the realm of possible.
And right back to problems #1 and #2, mentioned above. O_O
This was when my subconscious got involved. Apparently, it's had enough of me wibble-wobbling all these years.
So... when I sat down at the computer to write a paper (due tomorrow)... what emerged instead is what looks like something that may turn into Fushigi Yuugi porn.
O_O;;;
I'm scaried.
Here's hoping I don't chicken out (or fall asleep) before I get to the good part now that I've finally thrown myself into attempting this. O_O;;;
Nuriko: O. M. G--.
Tasuki: Did... did I really just read that right?
Nuriko: *nodnod* *wobble eyes* *glomps the fic author*
R-chan: *blush* *bluuuuuuush* *BLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSH* *little voice* I'll try, OK? That's all I'm promising.
Nuriko: I don't care. I'll take it!
R-chan: *twitch* Fine. Then help a girl out! Stop talking at each other and start sexing each other up, already!
Nuriko: *twitch* I'm trying!
Tasuki: *sweatdrop* Um... yeah. This one's my bad. I'll work on it.
Nuriko/R-chan: *sweatrain*
Edit: And... 2 1/2 hours later, I still have no paper, I have almost 2000 words of FY fic... and still no sex. O_o;;; At least I've gotten them through the talking and they seem to be ready to get down to business. Now if only I wasn't too bloody exhausted to type. Neeeeeeed sleeeeeeep. *thud*
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Date: 2011-04-05 10:02 am (UTC)My only other suggestion would be, I don't know, if you're worried, maybe watch some porn or something for research? (Because everyone knows porn is totally accurate and just like real life.)
You can do it! /cheerleader
P.S. this
P.P.S. I just read a rumor on Broadwayworld (vague cryptic unsubstantiated definite RUMOR) that alluded to the idea that the Hair tour might be thinking about spending the summer in New York. It's a nice thought!
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Date: 2011-04-05 12:22 pm (UTC)*snerts* Oh yes. Porn as real life. LMAO. That's how you get things like "throbbing, pulsating members." To quote (paraphrase), one of my favorite characters in one of my favorite novels, "Honey... if my penis ever does that, you'll be the first person I tell -- not as my wife, but as a Healer." XD (Though on the whole, watching porn is never a bad suggestion. *eg* ^_~)
P.S. -- OMG, yes! *dies laughing* Is it not the most hysterical?? XD I adore Josh Lamon. (I'm a little saddened by some of the implied details of the break-up, though. I want to like James Reichel... but between this and his occasional whiny-boy, superficial-as-flaking-skin tweets, I'm beginning to think he's a bit of a twink. Hopefully he'll grow out of it. *sigh*)
P.P.S. -- WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, pleasepleaseplease let that be true! *crosses fingers* I would be there every f'ing weekend (and possibly many weekdays), finances be damned.
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Date: 2011-09-16 05:13 am (UTC)You: P.P.S. I just read a rumor on Broadwayworld (vague cryptic unsubstantiated definite RUMOR) that alluded to the idea that the Hair tour might be thinking about spending the summer in New York. It's a nice thought!
Me: P.P.S. -- WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, pleasepleaseplease let that be true! *crosses fingers* I would be there every f'ing weekend (and possibly many weekdays), finances be damned.
*snerts* I, uh... think maybe I managed that. Or pretty damned close. ^_~ Apparently, I know myself pretty well. I am amused. ;D
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Date: 2011-04-05 10:44 pm (UTC)And that Bukowsksi tavern... oh my... XD
Your nervous about the sex scene? I'm sure you'll nail it! ;D
Just take your time, take a big breath, thinks of our beauties, and let your dirty awesome imagination flow! XD
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Date: 2011-04-06 11:53 am (UTC)I know! Isn't that fantastic? XD I've pretty much decided that somehow, someway, Claude is going to own a bar. Because that's too awesome a thought to let go of. Especially considering the menu: 'Shroom Omelets, Dope B.L.T.s... I'm sure Berger had a hand in that. ^_~
*laughs* Yeah... I'm dipping my toes in with a Fushigi Yuugi story that I've been promising Nuriko for the last, oh... 13 years? O_O;;; If that goes well, then I'll indulge Claude and Berger. ^_^ But I appreciate the vote of confidence! ^_^
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Date: 2011-04-06 10:40 pm (UTC)I'm going to enjoy my last month of Hair. I'll go on the 15th of April with a friend (I finally convinced her to watch it. My totally not vain argument: nude scene + drop dead gorgeous guys) XD
And then I'll go on the last day, 1st of May. Oh my >.<
5 months passed way to fast O.o
You actually ate there? XD
That menu is very promissing!
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Date: 2011-04-10 02:24 am (UTC)I agree, though, time always passes too fast. :( Except when you don't want it to, of course. :-P
We totally did! And it was very tasty. ^_^