Drained

[eirenical]

Caught up on a bunch of episodes of Glee today instead of doing anything productive. Loving Kurt more and more even though he made me cry in like... three episodes in a row.

Put off writing three papers -- all due Tuesday -- knowing I'm going to be stressed as hell about this in another 24-48 hours.

Also unintentionally spaced on posting last chapter of reallylongfic and now I'm not sure if I'll get to it before Tuesday. Damn it. I'll try for tomorrow.

Mom made split pea soup which is always my most favorite.

Had a fantastic winter concert at which I totally blew out what little voice I had left after the cold was done with it.

Yet somehow, in spite of all the good today, I'm kind of feeling lonely and worthless.

Maybe it's because a former client from my vet practice saw me at the concert and came over to say hello. Maybe it was because she was so clearly sad that I hadn't been at the vet hospital in so long. Maybe it was because she thought I was wonderful and she missed my being there... and I felt like a total ass because I didn't remember who she was. Maybe it's because instead of then thinking, "Gosh, that's sweet," all I could think was, "Where the hell were you people that love me so much when the few vocal clients that didn't were busy ripping me to shreds to my boss?" Maybe that made me feel like an even bigger asshole. Maybe the whole conversation was like a kick in the gut for making me once again feel pain over the loss of something that I thought I'd accepted.

Maybe it's just because after doing nothing more physically taxing that standing for a few hours, I was in more pain than I'd been since I originally hurt my back a year ago.

*sigh*

Suddenly I feel like screaming.

Fuck.

Don't mind me. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow.

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[zoicite.livejournal.com]

I went to the grocery store today in the monsoon and bought a turnip. The cashier had to ask me what it was. I rolled my eyes and said, "It's a turnip. Obviously." (I didn't really do that, but I did have to help her find it in the produce code catalog.)

Also, I may possibly have just finished some fic.

[rchan.livejournal.com]

I've spent most of the day vicariously crying through Kurt. I love his storyline so hard right now, it's borderline inspiring me to fic for him. *_* And I would have cried through it even on a good day, so I feel a little less stupid about it... and consequently a bit better. I should know better than to splash that stuff all over my LJ when I'm tired and cranky. :-P *unsure but game smile*

Though, as a side note, I must say that it saddens me that a grocery store cashier doesn't know what a turnip is. That's just... pathetic. O_O I hope you're enjoying it!

And seriously... you may have just single-handedly made my weekend better with that last remark. *_* You rock. *_*

[zoicite.livejournal.com]

awwwww, kurt. His storyline has been great this year (except for the one episode where i was mad at him for telling Mercedes that she was using him as a boyfriend standin. Cause I guess they can't just be friends now that he found a boyfriend? I don't now, i wish she'd punched him in that scene though.)

Kurt hasn't made me cry yet, but I've cried at like every Coach Bieste story while simultaneously wanting to hit Will Schuester.

[rchan.livejournal.com]

Well... I cry too easily while watching TV/movies to begin with. Like "at the drop of a hat" kind of easy. -.-;;; The Coach Beiste scenes make me cry. The Sue-with-her-sister scenes make me cry. I adore the interactions between Sue and Becky. And the whole bit where Sue actually proved she was not only human but a good person by stepping down as principal to try to protect Kurt. *_* Seriously. Loved her in that moment. Also... OMG I CAN NOT EXPRESS THE LOVE I HAVE FOR BURT HUMMEL EXCEPT IN CAPSLOCK POSSIBLY BOLDFACE CAPSLOCK. *_* *_*

Will... honestly, I don't have a lot of patience for him. Or for Rachel and Finn. Mostly, I keep wanting to boot them off the screen whenever the come on. :-P They're all kind of whiny and annoying. The secondary characters are far more interesting to me. And how freaking cute have Artie and Brittany been??? *lil' squee*

*pause* You'll have to forgive me. I literally just marathoned the entire second half of season 1 and all of season 2 to date of Glee in the last 36 hours. O_O

OK,IthinkI'mdonenow.

[zoicite.livejournal.com]

wait, you hadn't seen the second half of season 1 either? Wow, you were behind!

I'm very pro Brittany/Santana, but Artie and Brittany have been cute, yeah.

And I pretty much agree on the rest of this post. I still need to watch the christmas episode. I should do that!

[rchan.livejournal.com]

O_O Yeah... I really kind of was. I tend to do that with shows -- fall behind and then catch up all at once. I think it's because I really don't like having to wait a week+ between episodes. :-P But I am now all caught up! ^_^

OK, I'll give you that one. I'm a pretty big fan of Brittany/Santana, too... there's just something so adorably squeeworthy about Artie and Brittany, though. ^_^

LOL. Yes. Yes, you must. OMG, that episode made me cry. Multiple times. *sweatdrop* Which isn't saying much, now that I think about it. But there were some ultra-fine "Coach Beiste, FTW!" moments in there. ^_^

Soooo... fic? *hopeful look*

[zoicite.livejournal.com]

i do the same thing with tv. I just generally like shows better when i watch them in bulk. there are very few shows that i actually watch consistently week to week.

I need to do a read through and some edits, but yeah, i think fic will be forthcoming.

[rchan.livejournal.com]

*chuckles* Yeah... I believe we've noted similar TV watching habits in the past, now that I think on it.

*SQUEE!!!* Yeah... actually, I think that about covers it. *glomp* ^________________^