Good grief.
Nov. 20th, 2012 10:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eirenicalAs I mentioned the other day, I've been watching Teen Wolf. I've been enjoying it. My favorite character? Stiles, hands down. He's adorable, he's clever, he runs on at the mouth whenever he's nervous -- which is always -- and loves his friends to death.
This is not the point. The point is that around Episode 11 or so of Season 1, I randomly derailed off of TW to watch random eps of The 4400. And that didn't seem like an entirely logical place to go. Well, today I put it together. The guy who plays Stiles looks a bit like Patrick Flueger, who played Shawn Farrell and was my favorite character on The 4400. -.-;;;
Well, there are patterns to certain of my obsessions and the next place I always go after The 4400... is L&O: SVU Season 5, Episode 15. The one in which Patrick Flueger plays Aidan Connor -- a boy whose secret girlfriend is accidentally killed by her father, who is then shot and killed later in the episode. It is then found out that the girl (Shannon) was pregnant and her baby was the product of incest. Turns out that her father is also Aidan's father. He was living a double life. And Aidan's mother is the one who killed him. She goes to jail, leaving Aidan completely alone and very much suicidal. Stabler points out to him that he still has a [half] brother -- Shannon's younger brother. At the end, you can see it in Aidan's eyes that he's decided that he'll live... for Brian. And that's it. Just for Brian, not for himself. As far as Aidan is concerned in that moment, his life is over and done. It's heartbreaking.
And, uh... that kind of angst? My bread and butter, dude.
Anybody want a snippet?
Brian couldn't remember a time when sadness hadn't dominated every one of his brother's facial expressions. That sadness was so pervasive and all-encompassing that it was like an oppressive cloud that obscured everything else. Even Aidan's smiles were sad -- as though it broke something in him every time he tried to express joy. And he did try. Whenever he came to one of Brian's soccer games, whenever Brian did well on a test, whenever Brian brought a girl home for him to meet… he tried. G-d, he tried.
Sometimes Brian wanted nothing more than to tell him to stop trying. Because every time Aidan tried to be happy and failed… it just made him sadder and *that* made Brian sad. The only problem with the impulse to tell Aidan to stop trying to be happy was that Brian didn't *want* Aidan to be sad. More than anything, he wanted to see Aidan smile and mean it. He wanted Aidan to be happy… not just happy for Brian, but happy for himself.
NO. WILLPOWER. -.-;;;
This is not the point. The point is that around Episode 11 or so of Season 1, I randomly derailed off of TW to watch random eps of The 4400. And that didn't seem like an entirely logical place to go. Well, today I put it together. The guy who plays Stiles looks a bit like Patrick Flueger, who played Shawn Farrell and was my favorite character on The 4400. -.-;;;
Well, there are patterns to certain of my obsessions and the next place I always go after The 4400... is L&O: SVU Season 5, Episode 15. The one in which Patrick Flueger plays Aidan Connor -- a boy whose secret girlfriend is accidentally killed by her father, who is then shot and killed later in the episode. It is then found out that the girl (Shannon) was pregnant and her baby was the product of incest. Turns out that her father is also Aidan's father. He was living a double life. And Aidan's mother is the one who killed him. She goes to jail, leaving Aidan completely alone and very much suicidal. Stabler points out to him that he still has a [half] brother -- Shannon's younger brother. At the end, you can see it in Aidan's eyes that he's decided that he'll live... for Brian. And that's it. Just for Brian, not for himself. As far as Aidan is concerned in that moment, his life is over and done. It's heartbreaking.
And, uh... that kind of angst? My bread and butter, dude.
Anybody want a snippet?
Brian couldn't remember a time when sadness hadn't dominated every one of his brother's facial expressions. That sadness was so pervasive and all-encompassing that it was like an oppressive cloud that obscured everything else. Even Aidan's smiles were sad -- as though it broke something in him every time he tried to express joy. And he did try. Whenever he came to one of Brian's soccer games, whenever Brian did well on a test, whenever Brian brought a girl home for him to meet… he tried. G-d, he tried.
Sometimes Brian wanted nothing more than to tell him to stop trying. Because every time Aidan tried to be happy and failed… it just made him sadder and *that* made Brian sad. The only problem with the impulse to tell Aidan to stop trying to be happy was that Brian didn't *want* Aidan to be sad. More than anything, he wanted to see Aidan smile and mean it. He wanted Aidan to be happy… not just happy for Brian, but happy for himself.
NO. WILLPOWER. -.-;;;
